Psalm 46 - Tabitha Panariso - Mother's Day Collection Day 6
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way,
though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam,
though the mountains tremble at its swelling. Selah
My Dear Friend,
It wasn’t but six years ago that I lay on a cold and bare bed in the emergency room, feeling as though I would drift away — into grief, hopelessness, and despair. I felt untethered, unsafe, and so very afraid.
They couldn’t bring our baby back.
There was nothing anyone could do to save him.
At the moment, there wasn’t much anyone could say to save me.
From the darkness that was trying to swallow me whole.
From the cynicism that was trying to kill my hope for a dreamed-of future.
From thinking that I could come out the other side the same woman, or even at all.
“God, you’re such a safe and powerful place to find refuge!
You’re a proven help in time of trouble—
more than enough and always available whenever I need you.
So we will never fear
even if every structure of support were to crumble away.
We will not fear even when the earth quakes and shakes,
moving mountains and casting them into the sea.
For the raging roar of stormy winds and crashing waves
cannot erode our faith in you.” Psalm 46:1-3 TPT
I’m not sure what made me do it. But, that morning, I had placed my well-loved Bible in my purse next to my wallet and my keys. I never bring it with me anymore. Not since having discovered that I could carry the Word of God with me on my phone. It’s not that it’s not as powerful that way — just maybe more forgotten.
God didn’t want me to forget. Not that day, anyway.
After asking for my third blanket to warm my shivering body, I turned to my husband and asked him to start reading from my Bible. I didn’t care what he read — just that I could hear his voice speaking the soothing words of my Father over me.
And so, my husband flipped from passage to passage and read scripture after scripture —inviting God into our room and inviting Him into our hearts.
Where I felt untethered, His words pulled me in close.
Where I felt unsafe, His peace formed refuge around me.
Where I felt afraid, His power and might reassured me.
After all my years of loving God, it was in this moment that I, for what might have been the first time, felt exactly how much He loved me.
And not only me, but my grieving husband.
And not only him, but you, too.
He loves you. Can you believe that? Even right now, when you may doubt it the most.
He loves you.
Because He loves you, He will sit at the side of your bed and fill a dingy hospital room with His presence and He will hold you when you ask Him to.
Because He loves you, He will show up in every place you find yourself heavy with grief, lost in tears, and searching for a way out of your pain.
Because He loves you, He will cling to your side when you try to push Him away in your anger and confusion.
Because He loves you, He will remember your baby when everyone else has forgotten.
Because He loves you, He will restore you.
Because He loves you, He will redeem you.
Because He loves you, He will heal your broken heart.
It is because of His love that He is our refuge, that He extends His power, and rather simply — shows up in our time of greatest need.
He did it for me, friend. And I believe that because He loves you, He’ll do it for you, too.
Wherever you are in this moment — perhaps feeling as if no sentiment can save you from the oceans of anguish you are swimming in — know this: God is out there waist-deep in the salted water of your tears, swinging wide an indestructible rope braided with His Word in order to pull you to Himself.
Take hold. Cling tightly. And never let go.
He will harbor you in the refuge of His love.
Hi Friend, Ashlee here. Below is a song that I encourage you to listen to. I thought it would be a beautiful way to enter into worship as you begin your day and dwell on the Psalm above. Praying that you would feel the closeness and peace of the Lord as you walk forward today.