Psalm 23 - Brittany Allen - Mother's Day Collection Day 3
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD
I remember how it felt when I first faced the reality of death in my womb. The physical trauma that can occur, the sorrow which seeks to consume, and the loss that stays with you forever. It can feel like you’re walking alone in the darkness, searching for light. You may feel weary or misunderstood. You might feel isolated and downcast. Where do we find comfort in the loss of an unborn child?
Our good Lord walks alongside us in the physical trauma of miscarriage and also in the often deep grief that follows. After losing our first unborn child, I recall a moment of darkness that felt like it might consume me. With my hands on my belly, I called out to the Lord in groans only the Holy Spirit could interpret. I was burdened with grief and overwhelmed by the weight of my empty womb. A wave of depression threatened to overtake me. Truly, it felt as if I was “walking through the valley of the shadow of death.” Death had never been so close to my own soul. I’d seen it in caskets and heard about it on TV, but never had I felt it happen from within. The darkness of that reality fought to consume my mind. But instead of giving into it, I recalled the rest of the verse: “I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me.”
Friend, we have a Comforter and Counselor in Jesus Christ. He is our Good Shepherd who goes before us, walks beside us and hems us in (Psalm 23:1; Isaiah 40:11).
“He will tend his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms; he will carry them in his bosom, and gently lead those that are with young.” (Isaiah 40:11)
Even as we face the deepest heartaches this life has to offer, we can know that God’s goodness and mercy shall follow us all the days of our lives (Psalm 23:6). Friend, I know that right now it may be hard to see the goodness of God in your trial. I promise it’s there. This is where we must deepen our roots in the Word and the truth of God. Here is where our trust in Christ grows. Soon, he will restore your soul. The path he’s leading you down right now will bring deeper fellowship with Christ and greater Christlikeness in you (Psalm 23:3). Run to your Shepherd, your Comforter, your True Friend. It is under his wings that you will find comfort in the loss of your baby.
Your fellow Loss Mama,
Hi Friend, Ashlee here. Below is a song that I encourage you to listen to. I thought it would be a beautiful way to enter into worship as you begin your day and dwell on the Psalm above. Praying that you would feel the closeness and peace of the Lord as you walk forward today.